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A thousand memories rolled down like a motion picture in his eyes when he heard her name after all those years.

“Just an acquaintance”, he whispered with a hard smile as his eyes were strong enough to hold the tears.
He always found challenging to express his feelings for her. How life could have changed if he would have dared once, had spoken those feelings ballooned inside the heart, he was wondering. He knew, somewhere she too had a soft corner for him.
Someone has rightly said, When in love, express it, keeping it to yourself doesn’t help either.
All those memories started playing like a flash motion. He was time travelling in the memory chains.
How can he forget the very first, all of a sudden, small chit chat with her. He still remembers that evening in the library, that she had turned from boring monotonous into a beautiful memory that he still cherishes.
“Hey! I am Ritika”, she said in a joyous tone and moved her hand in an amicable gesture. I am not sure if we know each other, but we are in the same section.
Well it was sort of most unexpected event one could have ever imagined. His eyes grew wide in surprise and he felt like someone has poured bucket filled ice inside his stomach.
Did she catch him looking at her from the corner of book? It was true that he visited library in evening hours just to see her, to see her smile. Her smile that always seemed to hypnotise him. There was such an enchantment she had in her sapphire blue eyes. He could feel his tongue magically glued with some invisible string.
“Hey! I am Ritika”, she chirped again. This time she was smiling. He guessed she had figured out he was not expecting her, at least not at this point of time, when there were people around, sitting in couples, reading, teaching and whispering so called romantic talks.

Somewhere on another thread in his mind was executing few poetic lines…
He kept looking at her and time flew by,
He wondered why he couldn’t take his eyes off her face,
Like the moon and its moonlight,
He kept looking at her with awe,
But never imagined he would get to see her so closely.

“Oh Hi!”, he replied briskly.
“I am Siddhartha”, he was very quick and nervous. “You can call me Sid”, he further added.
“If you don’t mind, can you please help me with few questions? Exams are near and there is so much to read and I haven’t got many friends”, she was somehow able to bind all these words in a deep single breathe. He didn’t need to be very observant to say she had prepared this in prior. She indeed knew well how to break the ice.
“Yeah! Sure”, he still couldn’t believe all this was happening in reality.
She pulled a chair and sit beside him opening the book. His senses were lulled by her ravishing perfume as she pushed herself closer to point to the problems she was finding difficulty into.
“What will he do when he is not able to solve the problem? No, it won’t be good to loose impression in the first encounter itself. She had confidence in him and what will happen if he breaks it. Won’t she think he is just a show off?”, his head was spinning with many questions. Fear seemed to wrap him under her arms.
“But he hardly faced problem in maths before. After all it was his favorite subject and he could spent hours solving equations and all as if it were his girlfriend”, another voice was overpowering the cold fear.
The problems turned out to be a cake walk. There were few instances when he felt she already knew the solution. “Is she testing his intelligence?”, He spoke to himself.
He didn’t have to think much. It was already 6 in the evening and she needed to rush for the hostel. She broke his reverie by snapping her fingers.
“It was nice to meet you Siddy. Hope to see you soon”, she said in sugar coated voice and hurried herself outside the library room before he could say anything. “And thanks”, a distant voice broke the grave silence.
That evening was different. He could feel it. And he realized it when his roomie asked, “Why are you smiling on your own?”
“Just remembered an old joke on pudding”, he replied trying to hide what had just happened.

Few moments no matter how long, give you the best smile, the best happiness.   He spent whole night awake listening to “Only you” in loop.
Looking from a window above, it’s like a story of love
Can you hear me
Came back only yesterday
I’m moving further away
Want you near me

All I need is you to stay
All I need you for another day
And all I ever knew
Only you

To be continued…
Signing off for now. Hope you enjoyed reading this. Part is here – Stranger. Friend. Lover. Acquaintance. – Part 2

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Come with me my love,
Together we will reach
where noone has ever gone,
Lost in a world of our own,
Deep love not so ever known,

Hold my hand O’ love
till all the stars burn away,
Leave fragile world behind,
Walk together under the warm sun
in cold winter as we are one,

Come with me my love,
Together we will reach
where noone has ever gone,
My life is in vain,
Without you, my name will be slain,
Because you touched my heart
by your words,
Rendered everything else absurd,

Hold my hand O’ love
till all the stars burn away,
till we have our last breathe,
Because your absence
questions my very existence,

Come with me my love,
Together we will do
what few have ever achieved,
under the warm sun
in cold winter as we are one.

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Tu bas gai ruh mein iss qadar mere
Har sans pe likha hai naam tera
Tu hi shayari meri
Main hun shayar tera
Tu woh diary meri
Likhta hun jisme main dil ki jubaan

Tu mil gai hai
Mujhko mil gaya hai jahan
Tere jaisi hasin
Main dhundhu kahan

Ae meri bekhudi
Ae meri humnasin
Is aasman mein tum sa
Koi taara nahin

Tere khyalon mein
Doob ke aksar
Gaane likhta
Raat din

Teri mohabbat ka jadoo
Chhaya mujh par
Ho gaya hun
Ek panchhi bin par

Tu bas gai ruh mein iss qadar mere
Har sans pe likha hai naam tera
Ek baar keh de dil se mujhse
Main tera humsafar

Tu bas gai ruh mein iss qadar mere
Har sans pe likha hai naam tera.

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​Under the blanket in chilling winter,
I write my poetry although my hands shiver,
Fingers have frozen like a stone,
My heart is still pumping blood in vein,

A memory from the past keeps me awake,
A memory that I try every night to forget,
Once I too had someone to express,
A special one to listen all my interests,
All I have now is my loneliness and my dreams,
I scare to share my thoughts no matter how mature it seems,

Evenings got washed, nights got changed,
Days passed, months did, years they became,
Writing kept me hooked all these years,
A purpose to live despite all the tears,
No drinks, yet I am addicted,
Noone around, yet I am seduced,

Now poetry is my life, poetry is my love,
I ain’t pleased with any other stuff,
I have found a new way to express,
Feelings that would otherwise have been dumped in distress.
At least it will never leave me ever,
I can write my heart out forever.

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So many words are there to say,
Yet they fail to express how I feel for you night and day,
Tell me how I express those feelings to you,
I wonder if you’ve even got a clue,

I have moved around the world,
Never found someone like you girl,
An eye contact with you just makes my day,
When you smile, I seem to lose my way,

So many words I want to say,
Something keeps me from you to say,
Tell me how I get outta this fear,
Save me from this pain to bear,

I see you pass by me everyday,
One half of heart wants to hide, other half wants to say,
I try hard to ask you out,
Sometimes in fear, sometimes in doubt,

I blink more often when I talk to you,
Does this gesture give you some clue?
Every night I keep looking at the sky in blue,
Has this something to do with those feelings for you?

Every encounter with you blossoms my lonely heart,
Rains of happiness are there in every part,
Tell me how I express my feelings to you,
I wonder if you’ve even got a clue.

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Ek khwaab dekha hai maine kabhi,
Jahan tum bhi hogi aur baarish bhi,
Baarish ki boondon mein hum sang bheeg rahe honge,
Unn namkeen hawaon ki mehek ko mehsus kar rahe honge,

Tanha chaand ki roshni mein safed ret ki chamak hogi,
Samundar ki lahrein phir bhi ek azeeb si khamoshi hogi,
Ek khushnuma ehsaas aur ek andheri raat,
Aur taaron ki timtimahat tale bas hamara sath,

Kuch ankahee baatein hongi,
Hontho pe muskurahat hogi,
Aankhon me shararat hogi,
Mann me sugbugaahat hogi,

Aasman ko dekh hum gunguna rahe honge,
Uss anmol pal ko taare bhi nihaar rahe honge,
Raat ki chaandni mein hum khoye honge,
EK dusre ki baahon mein soye honge,

Karke saari bandhano ko darkinaar,
Lahraate samunder ke kinare hoga apna aashiyaan,
Mohabbat hogi beshumaar,
Jo ho na sakega lafzon me bayaan,

Bas intezaar hai tumhara tasveer se nikalne ka,
Tumse do meethi baatein karne ka,
Ek nayi zindagi jeene ka,
Ek naya rasta lene ka.

English translation
I have a dream sometime,
In which you are there, so is rain,
Drenching we are together in those raindrops,
Feeling those salty smell of breeze,

There is glitter of white sand in the light of lonely moon,
There is weird sereneness in spite of waves of ocean,
A feeling of happiness and a dark night,
And our togetherness under twinkling stars,

Some words unsaid,
Blooming smile on lips,
Naughtiness in eyes,
A little hesitation in mind,

Beneath the sky, there are us, lullabying,
That precious moment being stared by stars,
We are there, lost in moonlight,
Resting in each other’s arms,

Leaving aside all bonds,
Besides rippling oceans, there is our home,
Unconditional love beyond imagination,
Which can’t be described merely in words,

All I am waiting is for you to jump out of the picture,
To have a word with you,
To live a new life with you,
To take a new path with you.

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Raat din tere khyalon mein duba rahun,
Ik pal bhi tumhe na main bhula karun,
Har dua mein tumhe hi bas pucha karun,
Inn aahton mein tumhe dhundhta firun,

Teri parchhaiyon ka main pichha karun,
Teri har zikr mein main fikr karun,
Tu anzaan hai agar mere iss pyaar se,
Aa tujhko apni chahat se rubaru karun,

Ab toh aadat hai iss kadar tere sath ki,
Tere bin yeh zindagi hai bina saans ki,
Umeed ki sau kiranein hain palkon pe mere,
Jehn mein chhapi hai dastan ishq ki tere,

Main hun shayar tera, tu meri shayari,
Tu keh de toh likh dun main ik diary,
Saare panno pe honge tere ishq ki talab,
Mujhe zamane ki parwaah nahi hai ab,

Tu mera armaan hai, tu mera aasman,
Teri jaisi haseen iss jahan mein kahan,
Main toh zinda hun tere liye hi sanam,
Tu jo sath ho, mushkilein ho jayein kam,

Shab se subah tak tumhe socha karun,
So bhi jaun phir bhi tumhe dekha karun,
Raat din tere khyalon mein duba rahun,
Ik pal bhi tumhe na main bhula karun,
Raat din tere khyalon mein duba rahun,
Ik pal bhi tumhe na main bhula karun.

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Na jaane kyun yeh dil har pal tumhe dhundhta hai,
Tumse kuch kehne ko yeh yun machalta hai,
Tu jo hai toh yeh saansein chalti hain,
Tere bin yeh zindagi adhuri lagti hai,

Har sheesha mein tera aks nazar ata hai,
Tere siva kuch aur samajh na ata hai,
Na jaane kyun yeh dil har pal tumhe dhundhta hai,
Har lamha bas tera saath chahta hai,

Khwabon mein kyun har roz tu a jati hai,
Ab raaton mein neend mujhe na ati hai,
To na ho toh yeh jahan veerana lagta hai,
Tera mera rishta sadiyon purana lagta hai,

Na jaane kyun yeh dil har pal tumhe dhundhta hai,
Tumse kuch kehne ko yeh yun machalta hai,
Tu jo hai toh yeh saansein chalti hain,
Tere bin yeh zindagi adhuri lagti hai.

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1. Travel while you are young
“To travel is to take a journey into yourself.” – Danny Kaye
Traveling changes the way you think and perceive the world. Do adventures. After all, life is all about adventures, isn’t it?

2. Lower your expectations
Don’t keep too much expectations from anyone. Expectations might hurt you

3. Don’t take life too seriously
No one has ever escaped it alive. Those with coins enjoy drenching in rains peacefully. While those with currency notes in their pockets keep looking for roof

4. Choose friends wisely
Have a small circle of friends who share your interests. They don’t need to be in the same group. If you’re interested in music, find someone who is that crazy as well. Love to shake your legs in DJ? Find a dance partner and your happiness will be doubled

5. Love finds its way
Stop chasing love and start pouring that energy in something new, something exciting. Love usually comes when it’s the right time

6. Be optimistic
A hopeless person is as good as a dead. Hope keeps you telling there are things worth fighting for

7. Keep smiling
You’ll attract good people full with positive energy around you. Noone wants to talk to sadistic people

8. Get a good tight sleep
Keep your worries out of sight when you go to bed. A good mental health is the secret ingredient of happiness. And a good mind needs a peaceful stress-free sleep

9. Don’t tie your emotions with materialistic things
Broke your car? No problem, you can always get it fixed. Sometimes, it can be difficult but not impossible. Spend money in experiences and you will cherish it for the lifetime

Bonus tip from our favorite headmaster of magic:

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